I'm feeling dire and totally off track. My eating is not at all as controlled as it should be and was. I have been gaining and losing the same 8 pounds over and over again. Last week I didn't gain or lose anything, which is almost worse... I don't know if it is stress or what, but I am not being as careful as I normally am or as successful and it is only making me more and more stressed. I'll go a few days with being totally on track and then something will happen - a weekend, a big stress, something good, something bad... it doesn't seem to matter what - and then I will eat like an idiot again. I don't even bother pointing because I know it is horrible and that I am way off track with no hope of recovery. Likely that is part of the problem, the lack of accountability. I usually am so strict about pointing and tracking everything, but for those days when I give up (for lack of a better term) I just pretend the tracker doesn't exist.
Clearly I need a new game plan. I need a plan of attack that will allow me to refocus and start losing again.
- I am going back to basics. Tracking EVERYTHING, even on the bad days, and measuring everything.
- I am not going to allow one bad day to derail a whole week.
- I am going to try to identify WHY I am feeling like I need to over eat at those bad times in the hopes of trying to stop doing it.
- I am going to utilize this blog at those times in the hopes that it gives me a clearer view.
- I am going to make sure I go to the gym at least 4 days a week. (I haven't been having trouble with this, but I want to make sure I keep it up).
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Hunger: Cravings are high...
Body Image: Not good at all
General disposition: discouraged and helpless
Song of the day: I Try by Macy Gray
