Closer to 200 than 300

Current Weight: 247.6lbs
Weight lost: 3lbs

As of this weigh in I am under 250lbs! I honestly can't remember the last time I have been under 250lbs, and this weigh in brings me past the 60lbs lost since joining Weight Watchers, which is a huge deal. I can't help but keep reminding myself of how far I have come and how crazy it is. I skipped last week's weigh in since I was moving and stressed and just didn't care, so this three pound loss is really two week's worth. But still, I feel like I am back on track, things are getting back under control for the first time since before the surgery.

In honour of this rather huge accomplishment I am setting a new mini goal for myself. I want to stay on track this summer so I am setting a goal of losing 25lbs over the next 4 months. Somewhat lofty goal maybe, but I am feeling good following the surgery, I'm back on track at the gym, and I am determined as hell. I really hope to be able to accomplish it.

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Hunger: Not too bad, though I have been having intense cravings lately
Body Image: pretty good!
General disposition: Excited but tired
Song of the day: The Times are a Changin' by Bob Dylan

One step forward....

Well, as of today I am put on antidepressants. The past four months have be intensely difficult for me emotionally, between the surgery and the withdrawal from the gym and the isolation and the flooding my apartment etc. A lot of bad things happened and for the first time in my life I have found myself unable to logic through them and find something good to grasp on to. I finally went to my doctor today and she has me on antidepressants for a while. I wish I didn't need them, but I don't want to be like this anymore either.

However, my cast is off now and my ability to do a proper workout at the gym is back and my GOD is that helping. I was able to do 50 minutes on the elliptical tonight without pain in my foot (something I could hardly do before the surgery) and while I have to do it at a slightly lower incline I am feeling so relieved to be heading back to where I was fitness wise.

And finally, I didn't post about my weigh in this past week because it was yet another pathetic weigh in (0.2 lbs) and it hardly felt worth it. I'm really hoping that this week is a good one. I could really use a solid loss.

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Hunger: not too bad actually
Body Image: not too good actually
General disposition: not too good actually
Song of the day: Thinkin' About Something by Hanson (shut up, it is a great song)

Curse you, unicorn shortbread cookies!

Current Weight: 250.8 lbs
Lost this week: -0.2 lbs

Fairly pathetic weigh in, eh? May as well have been a stay the same week, but I guess some loss is better than no loss. I know why it wasn't a better loss, too. First, I ate what felt like a lot of salt the past two days and was/am feeling fairly bloated and as though I was retaining water. However, I feel like the lackluster loss is more to do with what I consumed on the weekend while at Easter dinner with my cousin and her husband, namely a vat of rum and a bunch of cookies. Not just normal cookies. They were delicious shortbread unicorns with cream cheese icing. I made them because I wanted to contribute something to the meal since they were nice enough to have me over, and my GOD were they delicious. I ate a lot of them (we all did), they were so irresistible. The next day I looked at the few that were left over and I knew that in my hungover state I was going to eat them all... so I threw them out. Too little too late, though. I had already eaten a herd of them the night before. ha ha

Anyway, I know why this week wasn't fantastic, but I have confidence that this coming week is going to be a lot better. I am feeling stronger, I am enjoying the gym again, and I am quite optimistic that I'll have a solid loss this week. :)

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Hunger: pretty high actually
Body Image: quite positive. :)
General disposition: stressed out, but hopefully on the upswing
Song of the day: Motherless Child by Eric Clapton

Current Weight: 251.0 lbs
Lost this week: -5.6lbs

Turns out my worry about losing the weight I gained last week was totally unfounded. Seriously, I never thought I woul dhave been able to lose it all in one hit, let alone losing extra weight on top of it. Good to see that big loss though. It is encouraging, and I am on the cusp of getting into the 240s, which will be great. Somehow being closer to 200 than 300 (ie. below 250) makes everything seem a lot better.

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Hunger: not bad at all
Body Image: pretty great actually
General disposition: good
Song of the day: Get Out Of My Dreams And Into My Car by Billy Ocean