One step forward....

Well, as of today I am put on antidepressants. The past four months have be intensely difficult for me emotionally, between the surgery and the withdrawal from the gym and the isolation and the flooding my apartment etc. A lot of bad things happened and for the first time in my life I have found myself unable to logic through them and find something good to grasp on to. I finally went to my doctor today and she has me on antidepressants for a while. I wish I didn't need them, but I don't want to be like this anymore either.

However, my cast is off now and my ability to do a proper workout at the gym is back and my GOD is that helping. I was able to do 50 minutes on the elliptical tonight without pain in my foot (something I could hardly do before the surgery) and while I have to do it at a slightly lower incline I am feeling so relieved to be heading back to where I was fitness wise.

And finally, I didn't post about my weigh in this past week because it was yet another pathetic weigh in (0.2 lbs) and it hardly felt worth it. I'm really hoping that this week is a good one. I could really use a solid loss.

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Hunger: not too bad actually
Body Image: not too good actually
General disposition: not too good actually
Song of the day: Thinkin' About Something by Hanson (shut up, it is a great song)