Mediocre weigh-in | message board purgatory

Current Weight: 261.8 lbs
Lost This Week: 1.6 lbs

So despite killing it at the gym I only lost 1.6 lbs. Good, but not as much as I would have liked. I have only lost just a little over 3lbs over the past 4 weeks, which I think is the worst 4 weeks I've had yet on WW. It has, however, brought me past the 45lbs lost threshold, so that's good. I just hope that next week I lose at least 2lbs. I would love to be in the 250s before my surgery and time is running out.


In other news, I feel like there is no place I belong anymore on the weight watchers message boards. I used to frequent the 100lbs to lose board but I don't really belong there anymore, and not just because I don't have 100lbs to lose anymore. Mentally and physically I am in such a different place than most of them. I'm happy, for one, and lately that seems like it puts me in the minority. Also, I enjoy exercise and spend over an hour at the gym 5 days a week which sets me far apart from the people declaring a goal of 20 minutes of walking four times a week. I'm NOT saying that their goals are unworthy or admirable, nor am I say that their concerns and worries aren't founded. I used to be exactly like these people (for the most part) so I know what it is like. But that isn't me at all anymore, so while I can relate to them I feel like they can't relate to me. I don't feel comfortable posting about my issues, my thoughts, my perspectives simply because I am coming from some place so different.

The other board I could be inclined to be more active on is the 20 year old board but I have the complete opposite problem there. Most of the people there have 20-30lbs to loose, currently weigh less than my goal weight, and are far and beyond where I am. Plus, I sincerely feel paranoid that people on that board judge those of us with 300s and 200s in our stats. The couple of posts I have made have earned me a couple positive, helpful replies but there are always the slightly acid, backhanded ones as well. Recently I posted a question regard to my activity points and whether it is a good idea to have 40+ AP left over at the end of the week, and I received very few actual answers and a bunch more of "How could you ever earn 50 AP in a week!?" I'm sure not all of them meant it as rudely/hurtful as I initially took it. I mean, yes, I am obese, but I'm active as hell. Five days a week I do 45 minutes of high intensity (based on my heart rate) on the elliptical and 20+ minutes of strength training. I average over a pound of loss after each workout from sweating so much. These are not half-assed workouts. At my weight, that calculates to about 12AP each workout. I work extremely hard, harder than a whole lot of people that are a lot smaller than me.

Anyway, my point was that I am in message board purgatory. I belong no where and don't feel like I have a real shared perspective with people (which is much less tragic that it reads! LOL).

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Hunger: I have been starving for a week!
Body Image: mediocre
General disposition: preoccupied with my hunger, but alright
Song of the day: I Don't Wanna Wait  by Holly Cole (I think)