New plan to stay on track

I'm still concerned over staying on track while I recover from my surgery. It is hard, and I'm pretty sure it is only going to get harder. The longer I stay stuck in this apartment the more inclined I am to just eat and eat and eat, simply from boredom. However, I have found that watching Biggest Loser gives me a big influx of motivation. Back in September I never would have thought that I would like the show, let alone getting any sort of positive feelings from it, but seeing others struggle and fight and work so hard to lose the weight makes me want to stay the course. So I am watching the current season, and am currently obtaining a couple past seasons as well. Here's hoping that is the extra bit that I need to keep myself under control.

I really NEED that extra bit because I received a get well gift basket of candy from a frenemy. I was really excited at first and then it clicked in how brutal it was having them in my house when I am vulnerable like this. I haven't seen her in over a year, I don't think she knows that I am trying to lose weight, and the old me would have LOVED that basket. If she had known about the sort of paradigm shift I'm going through I doubt she would have sent the candy, but as it stands I now have delicious treats my name from the kitchen. It is like the Telltale Heart or something, them calling my name and haunting me in my own house. I should throw them out but that is so wasteful and I'm sure she spent a fair bit of money on it so instead I am keeping them, high up and hidden out of sight in the cupboard, and I hope they stay there until a time comes when I can eat them responsibly. (....so, never?)

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Hunger: None.
Body Image: Not great
General disposition: A bit gloomy today
Song of the day: Jailbreak by Thin Lizzy