I'm starting to feel really optimistic about the results from my surgery. It has been 8+ weeks since I have had my foot hacked into, and it has been a long hard battle ever since then, between the isolation and the inability to go to the gym and the stress and discomfort from being in a cast... but last night I took my cast off and was walking (gingerly) with just my foot, no artifical support, and it struck me -- my foot hurts less now than it used to every day before I had the surgery. Don't get me wrong, it is still stiff and it feels strange when I flex in a way that puts pressure on my plate and screws, but in terms of pain it is better. It was a great realization, seeing that all of the hassle and pain and inconvenience of the surgery might actually have been worth it. And only 2 more weeks before I go to see the doctor again, hopefully resulting in my being cast free!
In other news, I was speaking with my sister yesterday and talking about how my foot is feeling pretty good and that I can't wait to be able to really get back at the gym again. I had been so worried before the surgery about maybe losing my momentum, losing the habit and desire to go to the gym, but I definitely haven't. All I can think about is getting back at it. She said, "You know, if you are two months having to take a break from the gym and you still are eager to get back at it then you are in it for life. That is fantastic!" and I think she is right! The six months prior to my surgery were amazing at the gym, I made tremendous strides, I pushed myself harder than I thought I could go, and I loved every second of it. I got to a place physically where I felt so good working out that it wasn't a chore or something I did grudingly, but instead it was one of the best parts of my day. Here is hoping that this surgery marks the beginning of a new phase of my life where there isn't anything holding me back anymore from achieving my goals. No more having to stop because my foot popped out or was too painful. No more having to limit myself to certain exercises to minimize the chance of hurting my foot. Once this cast is off and I get the go-ahead from my doctor I am going to throw myself headlong back into the gym and not look back. I can't wait!
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Hunger: if anything I'm too full
Body Image: not too shabby!
General disposition: weary but good
Song of the day: Entering White Cecilia by The New Pornographers
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