Thursday, August 27, 2009

Do not want

Remember this? Yeah, well, on monday I finally cracked and bought some. Holy hell is that stuff delicious. However, despite only having carefully measured tablespoons of it, pointing each one diligently, I have been feeling gross and just sort of unhealthy since I bought it. So today I threw it out, but first pouring some soy sauce in it so that I wouldn't be able to change my mind. It was scary how much my reaction to it was like that of a drug addicts. I no joke was thinking on my drive home how the first thing I wanted to do was have a spoonfull of it, which is the exact moment when I decided to throw it out. I shouldn't be having thoughts like that about artifical canned frosting for God's sake. It was like a needed a fix or something equally sick. I mean honestly, if I am going to jones for something I would at least hope it would be something cool, or at least less disgusting! Canned frosting? Seriously? Seriously?! WHAT THE HELL!

Anyway, as I said, I felt physically gross after eating any of it, so this really is a case of "Be careful what you wish for." And despite pointing every tablespoon I wouldn't be at all surprised to see a gain on the scales next week because of it. Franky I think I would deserve it.

In other news, my work pants are hanging off my ass lately. I bought them around March and at the time they were fitting quite snugly. Now I can take handfuls of fabric at ass, legs, and especially at the waist. I am to the point that I can take them off without unbuttoning/zipping them. A solid size too big, which is both awesome because hey! loose pants! but also annoying because they are otherwise fine work pants, not at all worn out or anything, and I don't really want to have to buy a new pair. That said, I don't want to be pracing about work in pants that make it look like I am wearing a diaper or something so new pants it is!


And yes I am being a bit of a downer at the moment, not super happy or enthusiastic, and coming home to an apartment devoid of electricity today didn't help. BUT tomorrow is friday PLUS I have a massage scheduled for right after work so I should snap out of it then.

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Hunger: none, which is good as it is bed time
Body Image: kinda gross and blorpy
General disposition: disappointed and I suppose embarassed
Song of the day: Stranglehold by Ted Nugent

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