I just posted in the WW message boards about this but I feel like I need to put this in here too.
For some reason I can't bring myself to tell my male friends that I am trying to lose weight and that I am on Weight Watchers. These friendships are 100% platonic and more along the lines of brothers than anything else. I'm functionally "one of the guys" so why I am unable to tell them this when I have arguably over-shared with them every other aspect of my life is beyond me. I mean, they know that I have been going to the gym for the past year, they no doubt have noticed the 30+ pounds I have lost so far, so it isn't like this is a giant secret or anything. And I know they would be incredibly supportive if I told them, just as they were when I joined the gym. (One, who keeps himself very fit, even offered to go and work out with me.)
I consider myself a fairly self aware and intuitive person, largely due to my father's influence and my own psychology degree. I can almost always pinpoint the reasons why I am have a certain emotional reaction to things or why I am inclined to a certain behaviour. But for some reason I am drawing a blank on this. I don't get why I have this block. It is strange to me.
in other news, I am feeling pretty grungy today and am really inclined to skip the gym. I think I will regret it if I do, especially on thursday when I don't see any loss at my weigh in, but at the same time I am totally exhausted and feeling kind of unwell. Maybe I'll go but not go as hard as I usually do..
------------
Hunger: quite high... really need to eat lunch
Body Image: not great
General disposition: a bit gloomy and melancholy due to my not feeling well today
Song of the day: Sister Moonshine by Supertramp
No comments:
Post a Comment