Choppy choppy and now I feel better

Okay, so yesterday was a rough day for me. I swear I became dehydrated from crying. LOL The big shocker was that I did NOT binge eat and stayed within my WW points for the day. I really really wanted to eat everything I saw, order in a pizza, eat it, and then probably find something else to eat but I didn't. I had the realization that all eating like that would accomplish would be to make me feel unwell and later feel even worse come thursday's weigh in. I also had a couple moments of "Why the eff did I choose this month to not drink alcohol?" but again I didn't indulge. I just sort of decided that my time of consuming things to deal with emotional upheavals is over. So instead I cried, watched Supernatural with Jourdan, and went to bed early.

As much as a victory not stress eating was I still needed an outlet for my stress. Well, I am a stress cutter, but not in the sense that you think. When I am stressed out I cut (or dye) my hair. For whatever reason it totally makes me feel better and whatever funk I am completely evaporates. Three years ago I went from long brown hair to short pixie platinum blonde hair because I was stressed out over moving. ha ha ha Anyway, clearly my foot surgery situation is darking me out so today at lunch I went and got my hair cut. IT LOOKS FABULOUS!!!

Modesty be damned, I look great with bangs! Who knew! It is a big change but I am extremely happy with it. Anyway, I feel completely brand new and while my impending surgery is not fantastic it feels much more manageable now. It is all for the best. Short term pain, long term solution. :) Everything feels completely possible now. I can manage the foot surgery. I can lose the weight. I can win.

I am now going to take my fabulous hair and gimped up foot to the gym. :)
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Hunger: moderate
Body Image: AWESOME
General disposition: Optimistic
Song of the day: Smoke and Mirrors by Paloma Faith