I don't know what the freg is up with today but I am suddenly feeling sad and like I want to eat EVERYTHING. I don't get it. I was fine and then POOF! Sad and aching for a binge eat. I'm not going to because what is that going to accomplish? but I want to. It is so strange. I think what happened is that my parents and I were talking on the phone this morning about my foot surgery and they kind of but the fear of God in me regarding how long I will have to be out of work, getting around on crutches, recovery time, etc. Everything they said was totally valid but it has stressed me out and now I am feeling emotional, thus triggering my desire to eat.
I know logically I should just go to the gym and work it out there, but it is rainy and cold and leaving my apartment isn't very attractive. Ugh, maybe I should just suck it up and go. I mean, I am not going to snap out of this funk by schelping around my apartment for the day. I have been telling myself that I am going to clean/organize my bedroom as it is at a Chernobyl-like state of messiness at the moment, but I just don't see it happening today. Much more likely is that I will tucked into my bed, wrapped in my duvet and cuddled in with my cat Rhubarb, and end up sleeping the day away. And then, since I slept all day I won't be able to sleep tonight which means I will have a crap day at work tomorrow and then be too tired to go to the gym tomorrow night... God that is a depressing series of events.
I really should just go to the gym.
EDIT: Okay, so I ended up in bed for a nap but my cousin/friend Tiff ended up calling right when I was falling asleep. We ended up talking for a bit and she basically told me to suck it up, get out of bed, and go shopping or something to make myself feel better. So I went shopping. I feel a lot better. Where size 24 used to be tight, size 22 fits a little lose now. And where size 3x used to be a bit clingy, size 2x fits perfectly. Such a nice change. So reaffirming. So I bought two sweaters, a blouse, a bra and a pair of jeans, all for under 200$. :)
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Hunger: Ugh, it's complicated
Body Image: meh
General disposition: oddly sad
Song of the day: Overload by Zappacosta
Sunday, October 4, 2009
2 comments:
You handled that extremely well - that's so hard to do, and you DID IT!! You got through your desire to eat based on an emotional situation. Good job!!! You're flexing your "resistance muscle"!
Resistance muscle for food at least. Emotional shopping? Not so much. ;)
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